ha la la la la la life is wonderful

Studying for anthropology = non-existent

Other things have been going great though. Keep praying for housing because we have yet to sign the contract.

The dream God has given me is taking root. Waiting upon the Lord for now till I get back.

Excitement is brewing. :D

first, I'll need some excitement whilst I study for Anthro. I can't believe I thought this might be interesting. geez.

BREAK OUT

Break Out was last night.

To be honest, I felt really reluctant to go. mainly cause I was feeling lazy, and the other because I really didn't know what to expect. But I went in the end. We prayer walked from London Bridge, went round some of the clubs to pray, and towards Waterloo. At the end, Piete Jazz and Jonny spoke to this guy who was sitting alone. Hannah and I went to the big green couches to sit, and in the end, we went up 3 girls and prayed for them.

I really praise God for giving us that courage. I mean, being in a whole new country and all, I feel that I can do the same as I did back home. People are infact perhaps more open. We'll keep praying and asking God for the harvest from seeds that we have sown.

Thank You Lord.

GOD IS GOOD

Things to Thank God for:

1. His amazing Grace:

we were reading Mark 4:35 about Jesus Calming the storm during pastorate on Sunday and I believe the common agreement was that we are always like the disciples. " Do you not care that we are perishing?" they said to him when they woke him in the middle of the storm. I asked myself, I'm always like this. Why do I still question God when I know He has a plan and that it is all part of His will? He who created the heavens and the earth must be bigger than the puny situations that I go through. Why then do i still do that? and I constantly find myself laughing at myself after everything has blown over, at my stupidity at believing that Things might not have worked out. Jesus said to the disciples " why do you still have no faith?" not in a manner of anger, but rebuke. Same for us, Why do we still doubt out Faith in God?

In service, Bill Johnson spoke of the exact same verse. It has to be from God. He said, but remember, the disciples WOKE Jesus. Same for us, we must wake Jesus with our prayers. Only then can he work through us. He did something for the disciples that they could have done for us. Jesus doesnt always want to do things FOR us. He would, but He also wants to work THROUGH us.

2. House

Dara Megan Aditi and I settled out house today. I firmly believe this was a blessing from God. At a point where we were all so stressed out by this nagging issue, He intervene. I prayed hard for this apartment. And He gave. I read today 1 Timothy 4 and it said "For everything God created is Good, and nothing is to be rejected if it is received with thanksgiving. Because it is consecrated by the word of God and Prayer". I pray this over the house, that I receive it with praise to God for it, and that it has been blessed to us because of prayers. and The word of God now blesses it. :D

3. The beautiful weather

It has been great. warm, sunny. I wonder how I'm going to survive back in Singapore. I did dream that I cut my hair really short. But dreams may often be the opposite of real life? HAHA. :D perhaps. But praise God. And I'm coming home soon!

4. Support

People who are praying for me, Mom and Dad who have been really supportive despite my flaws. :D People in church who has been praying for me.

God is Good, all the time.

reflections

Had my Renaissance Lit exam today. I found it amazing how little fear I felt for it? I'm not sure if i'm just desensitised but I literally felt no stress. Thanks for the prayers. :)

Tonight at student pastorate Jamie spoke about Them not Us. Has the church become an exclusive club? It's really a crucial issue that we have to address if we wanna reach the nations.

Colossians 4: 5-6

"Be wise in the way you act towards outsiders: make the most of every opportunity. Let your conversation be always full of grace, seasoned with salt, so that you may know how to answer everyone"

I guess we have to work on this one, at least I personally.

Anyway, housing is unto the Lord now. Gonna keep praying for his Grace and Blessing. :)

Get me a roof!

Honestly, issues of housing are bugging me like the constant hum of silence in my room.

It's small, in the background, but drives me crazy.

At least I know I'm moving out next year and I don't have to worry about disgusting Hall Food.

I'm gonna give it up to God. I pray that God you'll guide my ways and give me wisdom with the choice of flats.

Exams begin tomorrow. I can't believe I'm still sitting at my comp watching a few videos and typing this. I don't feel prepare, neither do I feel unprepared? Maybe cause I've been studying for so long it's like, I don't know. Desensitised perhaps. Listening to Brooke Fraser's music and studying. :D inspiring.

Father It's all in Your hands.

have you got the Passion?

PASSION 2010!

a last minute decision turned into the greatest blessing!

I went with absolutely no expectations, not knowing what it is about. Only 1 agenda on my heart: to experience that fellowship with the Spirit I haven't felt in a long time. All I can say is God has once again given more than I expected.

14th May: Friday I'm in the Movie

Romans 8:26-39.

God is FOR us! v. 26 the spirit intercedes for us. when Louie got onto his knees to demonstrate the image of the spirit praying for us I just felt so amazed. God himself in the spirit prays for me when words fail, when we pray for the wrong thing, the Spirit intercedes for what we really need.

v.31 "if God is for us who can be against us?" v.33 "Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen?"

if God is FOR us then who condemns us since God is the only one capable of condemnation. Yet the God of Judgement loved us so that he gave up his son for us. So why do we still listen to that small cunning voice that tells us we are not worthy, that we are guilty? Hasnt God proven his love for us, and proven that he is on our side?

To sum up Louie's sermon of the night, GOD IS ON OUR SIDE! And he wants us to be in his movie! as proud an extra is in a small movie, so we should be to be part of that movie names God, directed by God, produced by God, hair and makeup God! I just want to make His name known!

I felt the spirit so strong throughout louie's message. There is therefore no condemnation in Christ! I'm free! WATCH OUT WORLD! I'm in the movie God the scene from 1990-___.

15th May: Saturday I wanna be like Jesus

Francis Chan spoke about v.29.

"For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the likeness of his Son that he might be the first-born among many brothers"

how funny that we all want to follow jesus, and know the same power that resurrected him. but when it comes to the 'share the fellowship in the suffering" we kinda go: erm can we skip this. Jesus was rejected, jesus suffered. God wants us to be "conformed to the likeness" of Jesus and be like him. That means we will face the rejection, trials, tribulations. At the thought of that will we still want to be in God's presence, and want to love Him the same way? Will we still want to be followers of Jesus, and be like Him? If we choose that, We will experience an amazing fellowship with Jesus, like Stephen before he was stoned, looked to heaven and saw Jesus at the right hand of God.

Francis gave a testimony of the Korean Missionaries who were captured by the Taliban. When they were surrounded, they were standing in a circle with all their belongings gone. A woman however, still had her bible with her. She ripped it into 23 pieces and passed it along to everyperson, saying when they're alone, read the word of God and they'll have encouragement. Then One by One, everyone said "In Life or Death, I'm yours". The pastor then said that with the agreement of the leader of the Taliban, the first person to die will be him. What courage in God they had.

This was the impt part, after being back in Korea for a couple months, most of the survivors said that they longed to be back in that pit because it was then that they had such a close relationship with christ. I don't think Francis is saying that all of us should look forward to being persecuted, all of us will face death. I believe his point was that, in facing trials, we are pushed into the Love of God, we become so close to Jesus because we know he's our only rock!

after the sermon, he led us to pray. the spirit really spoke to me then. I questioned my actions for the past year, and if I have been following Christ! How different will the world be if Christians were really Christ-liked! And I haven't been reflecting Christ in my actions. I want to be like Jesus. I honestly stated my fears to the Lord, the fears of rejection, of pain, of uncertainty. And I just felt so, I don't know. I can't describe.

My god is AMAZING. I don't care if people think I'm a fruitcake, nutty for Jesus. I wanna be like Him. Help me God.

Just came back from Students' at HTB.

Was great. Jamie spoke about the body of Christ and being together as one family. The importance of We in He. I thought I was a really good example of this idea. The danger of going Solo. I thought I could you know, survive without a spiritual family here. But it really just is so much more different when you have a family to fall back on. Slowly finding my way into the students circle. So far so good. The people are just so warm. i rike. :P

At the end, i just asked the whole group to hold hands and to pray for the students and the church. Felt like I was back in FCBC, everyone praying out loud and stuff and the music in the background really loud. PTL!

"Spirit break out, break our walls down"

Passion

Quick Blog post before i shower and head down to watch Avatar.

Today Pete spoke amazingly about prayer and intercession. At the beginning I didn't really feel it was applicable to me but slowly, as he got to the 3 main points, I felt the spirit stirring inside of me. Passion, Promises and Perseverance. The part that really stood out was Passion.

For the past few weeks as I was thinking about it, I felt really apprehensive about being a main counsellor in the camp. Having direct contact with the children. I was really reluctant to say yes. I rather work in logistics. And i wondered why. Did I not love my ministry anymore? Then today, God brought back that passion. "break my heart for what break yours" In 2008, during the Survival Camp, I remembered being so broken on the 2nd night because I felt God's heart for the children. I was reminded of that tonight and felt renewed in my fire and Love for the children in the community.

It is great. God gave me the dream of having a ministry with children in future. To lead children to reach out to children. Whether as full-time, or just part of my service to him.

God is good. All the time . :D

Nose Tell Gel

Nostalgia.

It's an incredible thing isn't it. How one grows and matures, only to look back and feel this incredible feeling of Nostalgia. I think as you age, you'll start experiencing this at shorter intervals. Just thinking about the time when I just arrived in London, the feeling of apprehension with regards to things like "will i find good friends" "will i fit in?".

I couldn't thank God more for the friends here in International Hall. If I had any regrets it would be not hanging out with people on my course more. but that's for another time.

It has been a great year, awesome people incredible events! :D

Reminiscing KCPSS times with eiji over skype. the Only Singaporean CRAZY enough to not be sleeping in the wee hours of the morning. Good times. :D

Thank You God for everything, You're indescribable, you put the stars in the sky and you know them by name. You amazing God!

Lord Your ways are higher than me.

Teach me Father to walk in this grace

this Grace everlasting, Unbelievable.

The human mind seeks to rationalise

the greatness of this God who created the heavens

but fails. Fails miserably. The Supernatural

ways of you O Lord is higher.

Higher than the intelligence of man.

The inadequacies of us throws me into

Confusion. Yet I hear a voice

calling from Heaven, so deep from my heart.

Intimate, as if from within.

"Walk with me"