I was thinking about stuff last night. Circumstances dictates who we are. We are all brought up in such different situations. Found out more about people's lives last night, and i thought, its events in our lives that shape who we really are. Some have good family background, well brought up with morals, as such fit into the social norm. Some learn to treasure things in their lives.

everyone is so drastically different. though I know I dont get along with some, I'm gonna try to empathize. To see where everyone is coming from.

Glad to know that family is treasured. pleasant surprise. (:

Last few days have been crazy.

Hanging out till late,

Waking up early to do work.

(: Wednesday I was completely knackered after training and tiger tiger. So, I slept at 8.30pm.

Then I woke up at 5am to do my work. (: Was a nice day. had a good sleep and I was energised for school.

I was crazy enough to stay up till like 1am. thats 20 hrs i was awake. how coool.

slept and woke up late on friday morning. Watched Slumdog Millionaire in Anna's room till 11. then Dirty Dancing till 12 plus. We then went to The Rocket with Rob, Gez, Tim, Mared, Sabina. (: some got completely smashed. but rob was smashed before he even started.

went back around 2ish. then went to rob's room to play guitar and watch monty python. fun.

Woke up at 10, was too lazy to go for training. stayed in hall to study. (: I really enjoyed reading and studying in the conservatory. then at night, we went to cittie of york. Met Ida's brother! (: HE LOOKS LIKE NICKHUN! omg. hahaha. Was fun! ((: talked quite a bit.

then went to O'neils. was quite funny with the penny in the guinness. went back, played pranks on Tim, sat at the staircase got chased off, went to Joe's room to watch tv. (:

Slept 3. with daylight savings.

Liverpool won. its cool. Rob is so happy. after 4 games of misfortune its about time so, I'm whatever. (:

Today I went to church. I felt so happy. I started the day reading my bible. then to service. (: at the end, I really felt God's presence. Really really felt Him. Has been a long time since I came here. Praise God. ((: I like HTB.

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Life's been alright. Thank God for His blessings really. For the awesome group in hall, though we dont always hang out, they are good fun! (:

Plymouth was FUN! I really love playing frisbee. Really must thank God. My knee was hurting quite badly but each time i start a new match, it stops hurting till after the game.

the second night, it was just so bad i couldnt walk properly.

The party at Lemon's house was awesome. We had a Barbeque on his rooftop. had the view of the sea, nice awesome burgers and stuff. was just cool. later at night we then went to the Frisbee party near his place. At first it was alright. there was this drink called kryptonite and it tastes awesome. Then my team mates started getting drunk. That was horrible. I totally didnt know what to do, so i just sat outside the club waiting for them. Its in this situation that I finally realised, what kind of life I totally wouldnt want to lead. Its just so decadent. And i sat outside, just thinking about thing. and I really was so disturbed by what I was seeing. Call me conservative or whatever.

I remembered saying thank God for my hall mates. Though they get drunk, they dont lose themselves and make others be responsible for them. so. Thank God for them.

In any case, I love the sport. We lost terribly but considering how often we trained and how many people we had on the team, we were disadvantaged. (:

Oh well. school has been alright. starting to get into the swing of things. Reading, Looking up stuff at the library, buying books to start reading. Its all Good.

All I need to do now, is to find a church, settle down, find a cell. I just feel so strange now without cell, or FCBC. Im missing it incredibly. Family Friends Cell. My life used to almost rotate around church only. and Now, without it, I feel a little strange.

But all's good. (: Praise God

Turn Your eyes upon Jesus

Look full in His wonderful face

and the things of earth will grow strangely dim

in the light of His Glory and Grace. (:

The full swing of school just started.

Gone are the days, where I just sit around, Facebooking, reading useless information online,

chilling at Starbucks, Shopping and just planning the next day to fill up time.

8 hours a week.

not alot i would say.

but Im expected to do alot of self reading.

Modules : Writing in London, Language in Time, Reading Poetry, Introducing Literary Theory.

Introducing Theory encompasses the writing of an essay every week.

thats not too bad. considering in JC we wrote like 3- 4 essays a week for different subjects.

yeah, but I'm still not used studying yet.

Last night, i went to the study room with Dara from like 7.30 till 11.

only managed to finish 2 readings and the essay.

Oh well, i have to start waking up early for breakfast and get work done in the morning too.

Spend my free days doing readings and starting early on the essay so I dont have to worry about it so much the day before.

Nice to see the group of us in hall starting to study. (: starting from them drinking less. no more Rob-Style drinking till weekends.

I have yet to find a cell group, or properly settle down in a church.

Im beginning to feel a little detached from the community of God.

I need to quickly settle down in one.

FOR THE TWINS.

MY FOOD POST FOR YOU! check out the cheese thing. the melt the top layer of cheese, and scrape it unto hot potatoes and pickles. ( hate pickles) but its. AWESOME. (: and my library looks cool. ((:

to sum up the last few days,

Eating, Walking, Drinking.

honestly.

Thank God I know my limits. (:

today was the start of UNIVERSITY LIFE.

so exciting right?

it was. till i saw the reading list, the course packs, sat through 2 lectures barely understanding my professors, keeping quiet during seminar.

and my corridor is now filled with 300 million girls.

noisy.

Dear God,

Abba Father have your way.

how many times have i broken your heart

Still you forgive, if only I ask

Forgive me Lord. and i sing,

Everything i need, is you.

is only you God.

PHOTO SPAM! (:

finally uploaded photos from 3 days ago. BICNIC with singaporeans. (: at Regent's Park. my 2nd time there! love it so so much. ((: we played Freeze and Melt, and What time is it Mr wolf. Im truly a child at heart lah.

ytd, me Iming Alyssa and Pamelia went to HARE AND TORTOISE. good good food mannn. a litle pricey (ard 6 quid) but rly good. (: the prawn mee was... yum yum. and the LAKSA. FINALLY SOMETHING SPICY. i like. (: going there with derek later again. after my Induction, i went to Regent's Park with some of my hall peeps. quite fun. hahahahahaha. (: took some cool photos. hahaha.

then at night, after hall dinner, met the singaporeans to go for ice creamm. (: nice nice nice...

ytd was a little strange. I felt sian like i've never before. I just have been so overwhelmed by the whole idea of re-socialising and getting to know people again. I dont know. Im just really feeling quite tired of having to get to know people, hang out, drinking. I really miss having familiar people around, people i can eat Naan with, laugh and talk about practically everything in the world. Not having to be conscious of the topics you talk about, constantly searching your mind to find common topics to talk about. Just super sian.

But God is good! Thank God for some of the singaporeans. esp. Derek. could talk to him about some stuff. and even people like I Ming, Alyssa, Faizxzxz, Jonkong, Desmond. (:

" though the fig tree does not bud

& there are no grapes on the vine

though the olive crop fails

&the fields produce no food

though there are no sheep in the pen

& no cattle in the stalls(or no friends to hang out with)

YET I WILL REJOICE IN THE LORD

I WILL BE JOYFUL IN GOD MY SAVIOUR"